When I was with you, I would sometimes pretend that you had died, so I could try out the truth of living without you.

And now that we’re apart, the reality of your being very much alive and not here with me is more than I can bear.

I feel you everywhere.

You permeate every thought, every dream, every moment that I am conscious or asleep. Even though I had to let go, even though you have replaced me, I perist in you.

You’re in my coffee, you’re on my deck, you’re in the shower and in every bite of food.

You were singly the greatest love and the greatest wound I have ever or will ever feel.

I am undone.

Lonely, the only companion
When you reach to turn out the light
Rollover, and say to the pillow,
Good night, my darling, good night

Cause you know you’re sleeping alone,
You know, even though he is home,
The only smile returned in the mirror
Is the one that you give your own

And I’ll spend forever beside you
Least that’s what I promised that day
And I’ll wish and I’ll try and I I’ll fake it
Til someone sweeps me away…maybe someone will sweep me away

And tomorrow you’ll rise to fresh daisies
But not in a glass or bouquet
They’ll come via text from an old lover
Thousands of miles away

And how hard would it be just to hold me?
To wrap your arm ‘round my waist?
To breathe in my ear that you love me?
That you look forward to seeing my face?

I’ll spend forever beside you
Least that’s what I promised that day
And I’ll wish and I’ll try and I I’ll fake it
til tomorrow sweeps me away
Perhaps tomorrow will sweep me away…

The words you tell your disciples
The ones who think you’re so grand
Belie the truth that’s inside here…
I am conducting a one-woman band.

I’ll lie here and wait, for now, Dear,
tomorrow will sweep me away…